A political rally is raging against the small single street of Salento, around us chants rise with the sticks and cardboard signs made from old beer boxes. The men stop their card games and move to the doorways to raise their glasses. I feel a festive air of danger and do the same. Somewhere in the middle of it the howls and yelps of a vicious dogfight break out and the moon above us appears to show that it has eaten all its days. “Sometimes even werewolves cry.” Even as I say this I know my words will fail me, but everyone laughs and slaps me on my back.
If you were here with me now like I wish you were, you would see Ben and I speaking with a beautiful Turkish girl posted up against the rail of the last real pool-hall on earth. We pass stories back and forth with such intimate sincerity about the gift and curse of life on the run that she begins to cry and reaches out to clasp the back of our necks with shaking hands. At a men’s only bar in the middle of these coffee plantations this is quite the site to see us both holding her.
Old Colombian men with more swagger than tucked in button up shirts switch between cards, stick, and drinks the same way we trade song. Pool sticks with individual player padlocks line the walls. Ranchero 45’s take up what they don’t. The owner (big bellied, bigger mustache) knows us by name, the day before we downed 30 shots with him in an hour just to beat the fear. These men here surrounding us are some of the biggest baddest caballero gangsters I’ve ever met, they were in their prime when Colombia was an all out fucking war zone, they’ve seen more death and heartache than times you’ve put butter to bread. It’s our honor to raise glasses with these papas. It’s what we do. Now in their late 50’s and 60’s they just wanna sit on benches and in doorways, sip, smoke, let out another button, and watch the world go by. Don’t get it mistaken though, with a word they could have you belly up. No one no wiser. Shoulders pushed together we bully in.
From where I stand now, a ten-kilometer hike looking out over the fincas, the coffee plantations, the 100-meter wax palms, and jungle, seeing the world with the eyes of a first kill, it’s hard for me to imagine that it could all end soon. It’s hard for me to wrap my head around the angst I felt the last time I was in NYC, or to recall the anxiety that gripped me so hard it broke me and sent me to the emergency room in Portland. I don’t get the same sense of world destruction here. I can still envision a flood warmly washing over the earth but something about being out here makes me feel like I could last as long as the river bed. Not forever, but passed what’s coming. Politics, comets, and war seem as far away as her and her love.
When you eat BBQ in Colombia they give you gloves instead of napkins. You loose some of the taste without your hands against the meat, just like a boxing match vs. a bare-knuckle fight. This layer cheapens with a false sense of sophistication. I try not to make too many of these compromises for comfort against the thick. My thirst for the taste of it on my hands is how I end up staying at a house (with a wonderful Colombian couple) a couple kilometer walk from the nicer ranch of La Sorena. There is no internet here, no tv, just this beautiful house on the mountainside and a half finished pool out back for us to help dig. We BBQ with them over a huge bonfire and dance while we eat with our hands deep into the morning light. We’ve been with them almost a week now.
It was a 9-hour bus ride here from Medillin. Supposed to only be 6 but as we head south towards the jungle the roads along with the infrastructure will slowly disappear into the background.
Back in Medillin we attended the flower parade where the giant floats were carried by the many hundreds each on the back of a single man. Heavy catholic connotations of Jesus carrying his cross prevailed. Low flying military helicopters dropped flower bombs that rained over the large city street.
We rent a car and drive two hours with our new friend Saleem and an Aussie girl named Virginia (but who we call Richmond) deep into the mountains to attend a “finca party” we’ve heard rumors of. Somewhere we find some cops on Kawasaki 250’s down a dirt road and they escort us to the party pointing the way with their drawn gun and even walking us in. We sleep in the car and wake up with the laughter of a good night.
The night before we leave the girl in my room has an epileptic fit and falls behind the coffee table in spurts and twists, after refusing my help she runs out never to be seen again. It must be time for us to go.
I’ve been on the road now three months, some of those around me almost a year. I’ve learned you can’t trust the music. My Spanish is getting better. I’ve seen floating mountains and women with fake asses left over from the drug money. I’ve tasted the big adventure on most days and slept with its daughters on most nights. I still see speedboats and think they are “water antelopes.” I still think a good story is the only real currency you need. I still like it weird. I don’t think this journey is going to change me in some profound way; I am almost 30 and pretty set in my ways, both good and bad. I do think though that I can get my skill-set up. That I have a lot to learn from these people and can if I let myself. It’s gonna take some time and might happen so slowly I am never aware of any results. I am starting to worry a little about money but I wont let it stop me from spending my last penny and starting from scratch. I’m drinking coffee for the first time in my life and it’s right from the source. I’ve definitely learned the art of the goodbye. I’ve learned that the more beautiful it is the sadder it seems to me. Let me practice it now.
She saw a photo of me squinting against the sun and said,
“So even wolves get caught in headlights.”
In that moment I knew that I loved her more than the sea.
Signing out from The Thick,
Rafael V.
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